you make me unbeautiful.

Friday, October 31, 2008 @ 11:16 PM

Met clique minus QianLing, plus Junkirk for lunch.
Really miss QianLing. It has been a long time since I last seen her. ):
Went for band after that and its alright luh.
Dinner-ed with MelissaT, Zongquan and Iris at Buddy Hoagies.
After that, left for work.
Sales is damn damn bad today.
Our supervisor gave us those shitty blks please!
Its like a wasted trip luh!
Sigh, caused us to be so tired somemore.
And there's band tomorrow! Argh.

Do i still ever have this chance to amend what I have done wrong in the past? ): I don't think so.

@ 12:19 AM

TAG REPLIES.
Adrian: LOL, adrain and adrian is the same right? :D Recently no sexy woman for you eh? :D
kkcw: Ahem. What do you mean uh! You are always so lame -.-
WEIZHONG: Idiottttttttttttttt, you're always cursing me! ><>
Rachel: LOL, WANGZI AND HIRO TMD SHUAI PLEASE! Miss you lah, nehneh! ):
angeline: I miss you, woman! (heart)
Daniel: It's like so long since you last tagged me lah! Haha. So Feiyao in action again huh :D
Our second month coming soon! [:
wanshing: AHEM, don't steal hor! Don't play play! :D

Thursday, October 30, 2008 @ 11:28 PM

Went to school this morning for lesson.
2 hours of History and 2 hours of Maths.
History was hilarious whenever Mr Nair is around.
But I was really sleepy at that time.
Maths is alright, just that my stomach was aching terribly at that time.
Went home and bathed.

After that, out to watch 'The Coffin'.
And I think I wasted my ticket money luh, because I wasn't watching most of the time.
Anyway, must thanks Kmy, LOL. For 'consoling' me.
Went to meet Iris and Isabelle after that.
Had our dinner at lot1 and we swear that we are not going to the Pizza Hut over there anymore.
We did a super malu thing please, and I'm not gonna elaborate further.
Isabelle left and Adrian joined us for work.
Kind of fun lah, but tiring.
No remedial lessons tomorrow morning! CHEERS :D

Trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @ 6:49 PM

Went for Band today. Don't wanna elaborate any further.
Just that I miss Mr. Tan [:
He looks cute and round as usual.

Looking forward to tomorrow,
gonna watch 'The Coffin' with Kmy.
OMG, scared ><
Yknow, everytime you talk to me, I always feel happy but sad as well. I don't know how and why I feel this way. Sigh, what do I want? I don't know. I miss your voice. I miss the sweet messages you used to send me. I really do. Sigh, just be good to her.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 5:04 PM

Lessons were boring.
All i can say is that, the minute teacher says class dismiss,
everyone who were restless all jumped out of the seat and shout here and there.
And I love the way 3a1 behaves :D
Slacked with Yanwen after school and went to makan.
We talked almost everything under the sun.
Went to the playground near my house to play the swing as well.
Felt giddy and went home to have a nap.
Going work in about 15 minutes time.
Hope sales will be damn good today.
And by the way, we don't know how to walk to the wulu place! ):

I can see that you are happy [: And I'm really glad as well. Maybe you do not know, but from what I see, I guess you have fallen for her unknowingly already. And I'm seriously happy for you :D

Monday, October 27, 2008 @ 10:29 PM

WANGZI! ♥♥
{Tsk, WanShing, he is mine lahhhhhhhhhhhh. :D}
Alright, here I go. Crazy over another guy again.
So I have been spending the whole day watching this show.
No life manszxzx.
Anyway, have to go back school tomorrow.
And there's work tomorrow.
Tsk, its torturing!

If a perfect fairytale only appear in dreams, I don't want to wake up. Because I want it to last forever.

Sunday, October 26, 2008 @ 11:47 PM

Went to have my hair trimmed with my dearest Wanshing.
Head-ed to the Food Court next where we had our lunch.
After that, took awhile to pick a video to rent before going to her house.
ZongQuan joined us after that.
Watched a few movies and I pretty enjoy it.
Home-d and watch 'Black sugar Macchiatto', and I think I'm addicted to it.
It's Deepavali tomorrow and I'm looking forward to it!
Because there's no school + work tomorrow! CHEEEEEEERS.

Oh, and Adrian just told me that there's a job which I am pretty interested in it.
A pity the working days are from Friday-Sunday.
And i'm not free on Saturday.
Damn it. Its such a waste! ):

Friday, October 24, 2008 @ 11:37 PM

Went to school for Band. Its so so boring in the CDS pleaseeeee.
And I was freezing inside as well. Ate my lunch at Buddy Hoagies and homed.
Slacked awhile before heading to YewTee for work.
Sales is not bad today. YewTee is indeed way better than Sembawang.
I find work fun as well, but its tiring.
Not working until Tuesday! Cheers! :D

And I realised that the outside world is actually so scary. ):

I want to stop missing you. I really want to.

Thursday, October 23, 2008 @ 3:52 PM

Went to school today to watch the matches between teachers and students.
And I finds it entertaining.
Ms Kaur is super hilarious in whatever she is doing today.
I so wish she will be our FT next year.
Its the last day of school today. I hope I can see everyone in 4a1 next year! :D
(pray hard)
And I'm working tonight. How great can that be? ):
Just hope that the sales today will be good.

Great, I guess I have stopped quarreling with my parents already.
I just hope that this will go on for at least awhile.
I really hope so.

[Edit]
Today's work is baddddd.
Imagine walking 2 blocks, knocking door to door on every floor,
and we sold nothing. Bad bad bad.
On the other hand, Adrian was disappointed as well, not because of the sales,
but because he finds that there isn't any hot woman there. :X
Hope that we will have better luck tomorrow. (pray really really hard)

I wish, I wish, I wish.
To think that I will be seeing you for the last time today. I will really miss you. Wish you all the best in everything. And be happy, always.
And fcuk, why am I saying all this now?

Monday, October 20, 2008 @ 10:56 PM

Just got back from work. F-ing tired.
And I think my eyes can close any minute.
Had school in the morning and we played a board game which teaches us about stock and all that.
I find it fun and interesting. At least I won't have to rot in school :D
Went home and I went for work in the evening.
And guess what, my work is door to door AGAIN.
I thought I could at least get a much proper job, but its disappointing!
Luckily, today's sales is not bad :D
And I really hope that this job will be much better than the previous job that is door to door as well.
(pray hard)

Lastly, my stomach hurts the whole day which spoils my mood! ):

What is not mine will always not be mine. I don't know how, but I just wish I can give you up as soon as possible. I didn't know this would actually take so much time. And I dislike that. I feel like an idiot all this while, and I know, I have already disappeared in your life. it hurts me so so much. whatever it is, I just hope to see you smile everyday, and I'm contented already.

Sunday, October 19, 2008 @ 9:00 PM

18th0ctober
Junior Winds had a concert at Admirity secondary, combined with 3 other schools.
Well, I actually find it rather boring over there. (Due to some reasons)
And we were just being the audience for the later half of the day.
Luckily, the concert ended early.

19th0ctober
Had the so called job training at Choa Chu Kang early the morning with Iris and Adrian.
Its rather disappointing to me because I thought this job would be better.
Apparently, It doesn't seems so. Well, I will just hope for the best.
Then Adrian and I mrt-ed to Junkirk's house while Iris went home.
Played cards at his house. Home-d.

It's been so long. But why can't I just give up? ):

Friday, October 17, 2008 @ 8:01 PM

Well, today is a very special day, the Graduation Ceremony.
Its a very sadddddd day actually.
Took some photos with some people, and I accompanied Iris out of school to hail a cab as she has some doctor appointment.
Went back to school and coached YueTing for awhile.
Rushed home and met Iris after that for a job interview at Bukit Timah.
Well, the place is really really creepy and some things happened unexpectedly.
But we still get the job i guess. Went to eat and headed to Nicholas house.
Played cards with Nicholas, Ashton, and Deshun.
Well, I'm not sure whether I win or lose actually.
Lastly, Deshun, being the super nice guy, sent me home.
Overall, I enjoyed myself :D

Oh, and someone said that you can actually die from tripping on a banana peel! [:

Thursday, October 16, 2008 @ 10:19 PM

Had a wonderful day today! :D
Went to Kbox with WanShing, QianLing, Grace, ZongQuan and Junkirk.
We sang all kinds of song.
And I sang like one crazy woman over there during that 4-5 hours!
Thus, I sang until my voice went sore.
Not only that, we kept eating the tibits, making the staff refilling it again and again.
I think we ate about 15 bowls? :X
I had soooooooooooooo much fun! :D:D
Headed home after that.
[photos will be posted asap. :D]

Tuesday, October 14, 2008 @ 9:36 PM

My SA2 result is neither good nor bad.
Well, I don't know what to say. Although I put in lots of hardwork in this exam,
I got some very disappointing marks for some subjects.
And I don't understand why. Oh well,
Physics: 55.3/100
Chemistry: 64.7/100
comb. science: 60/100
Social Studies: 27/50
History: 27/50
Comb. Humanities: 54/100
Additional Mathematics: 57/100
Elementary Maths: 74.5/100
Mother Tongue: 74.5/100
Principal Of Accounts: 84/100
As for English, Its not confirmed yet. Just hope that I pass!(pray hard)

Amaths and Humanities is a complete disappointment.
Oh well, now i know how 1 mark or 1/2 mark makes a HUGEEEEE difference ):

CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER UP, WANSHING!
I'm always here for you, yknow! :D
You must stay optimistic okay! Smileeeeeeeee [:
LOVE YOU LAHHHHHHHHHHHH! :D

Monday, October 13, 2008 @ 7:15 PM

I woke up with swollen eyes this morning which is super irritating! ):
Oh wellllllll, got back two of our papers today.
I don't know whether I should jump for joy, or cry out loud.
&I'm rather afraid to get back my Amaths paper. ><
Wish me luck please.
Band resumed and I almost fell asleep when Mr Tan is going through the sec1&2 pieces.

Oh, and and, JUNKIRK IS A SUPER NICEEEEEEE GUY!
He waited for _______ outside school for like 4-5 hours, just to send her home.
OMG, he is so so sweeeeeeeeeeet please!
How I wish I have such a nice boyfriendddddddddd! :D
__________, cherish him luh!

REPLY OF TAGS.
jing yi: Thanks mans! :D Jiayou in your 'O' level as well! Need help just call me :D
SA: Haha, thanks for everything! :D I'm fine! :D
♥ Rachel: Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, handsome right! So wei da somemore! I miss you luh, nehneh! Meet up one day!
wanshing: HIRO SHUAI MANSXZX. Junkirk so sweet hor! Hahaha, thanks for everything uhhhh! (hearttttttt)
WEIZHONG: And what's that thing? Meh-yeh doubleyewer :D
kkcw: Haha, you sound like I am always so small -.-
Boon: And why are we wishing each other which happens to born on the same day? :D
graz: You cheer up too alright! Lao de is always here for you! :D
angeline: Oh, and I can't wait to meet you and share everything with you! loveeee.
adrian: Hahaha, paiseh luh! I do correction 100 times liao, so I don't think will spell wrongly again. :D:D
qianling: Ya lah ya lah! Always love you luh! But someone needs your love more than I do.

Sunday, October 12, 2008 @ 9:38 PM

MEH-YEH DOUBLEYEW-ERS! :D:D
I fell down this morning in the toilet! ):
Bad bad bad bad start.

Went to meet crystal at cwp and slacked.
Head-ed to Wanshing's house later on before dinner.
Stayed awhile before meeting ZongQuan to have our meal at the food court.
After that, we talked alot, and slacked at a nearby playground.
Talked and bus-ed home with ZongQuan.
Thanks zq, and ws [:

I love you. But I'm gonna love you by letting you go [: Thanks alot.

@ 12:14 AM

I'm still having difficulty sleeping early, and longer.
Just hope that everything will turn out right soon. :D
Oh and I miss NST, ):

Till now, i still can remember how much I enjoyed yesterday, and how surprise I was yesterday.
Its one of my bestest day in my life!

But tomorrow is the last day I can enjoy before band resumes on Monday. ):
And i'm ___ looking forward to it.

The greatest regret that I had was not to love you, but was to hurt you so deeply. i miss you so so much,

Friday, October 10, 2008 @ 11:37 PM

Its totally awesome today, because of many many people.
Alright, went out with Mingyu to catch "house bunny".
A very gorgeous show.

After that, went to meet clique, and they threw a surprise-belated-birthday party for me.
I was really surprised and I can't help smiling to myself when I see so many people singing birthday song to me when I walk towards them.
Its totally splendid. Helped to bbq, and I shared alot of things with Angeline for about one hour?
Well, sort of sent her to the bus stop and then I went back.
Went back and I 'threw' myself into the swimming pool. Its been years since I'm inside a pool.
Alright, overall, I had loads and loads of fun. And this is the best birthday gift I ever had!

I have to thank Szeli, Shuyi, MelissaTan, Szeli's friend, Huiling, Jingyi, Kaixin, Yujia, Elizabeth, Xinyi, Chunwei, Adrian, Ashton, Clifton, Deshun, Jeckie, Nicholas, Darrel, Yongru, JunSheng, Fayyad, Junkirk's brother, and Angeline for coming to the party which I didn't know.

I have to thank Junkirk for booking the place and all that.

Lastly, special gratitude to
WANSHING
QIANLING
IRIS
GRACE
ZONGQUAN
Without them, i think all this things won't work out. Without them, I wouldn't have so much fun.
AND I know that you all know that I LOVE ALL OF YOU TO THE MAXIMUM! (hearttttttttt)

(hope I didn't leave anyone out!)

I will continue to wait. I know its my fault in the first place. So let me wait to amend my mistakes [:
I seriously, love you.

Thursday, October 9, 2008 @ 4:01 PM

OVER THE MOOOOOOOOOON! :D:D
I swear i'm gonna enjoy myself this few days to compensate for the loss of many many braincells.
Alright, its no link.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i'm flying, because exams are over! :D
CHEEEEEEEERS.

I never knew what you are always thinking.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008 @ 10:51 PM

LAST PAPER TOMORROW! CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERS!
I'm gonna be really busy after exams. (ultimate grin)
JYJY, FOR PEOPLE TAKING 2 PAPERS, OR 1 PAPER TOMORROW!
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE,
Oh, and i'm getting so so high.

I thought you remembered what the date today. But again, I was wrong. It hurts.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008 @ 1:36 PM

THREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE more papers, TWO more days! (gianttttttt grin)
Oh yay! :D:D

Hmm, woke up at 0345 and called Mingyu to study with/teach me History.
And I guess I tortured him pretty much by asking him to study with me in the morning,
and accompanied me to school early today. [:
I guess he is super tired now =X Hope you are alright :D
Oh well, History and POA were okayyyyyyyyyyyy,
And its POA p2 and Math p2 for tomorrow.

Right now, I am still thinking whether I should hae a nap first before studying, or the opposite.
Oh well, Ignore me [:

All I need, is just your love.

Monday, October 6, 2008 @ 5:21 PM

Alright, 2 more days, 5 more papers to go.
Chemistry is alrighttttttttttttt, (if you believe)
And Amaths was the killer.
Totally screwed. Everyone comes out of the examination hall with their head shaking.
And I am one of them. Urgh, oh whatever.
Next two papers: History, and Poa! ):
I just can't study both of this subject in one go.

I thought I can forget you, but it seems like, i was totally wrong.

Saturday, October 4, 2008 @ 10:55 PM

Alright, went out to study with cw, gl and adrian.
Quite alright. Only manage to study Amaths though.
Went to eat dinner then cw and I bus-ed home.
On the way back home, saw iris and co. So started to study with them again. -.-
Home-d at ten.
Hope _______ is enjoying herself right now! (giant grin)

And I just hope that you are serious this time.
2months and 1day. It's time to let go. I have suffered enough of agony. Everything should end here.

Friday, October 3, 2008 @ 9:58 PM

Alright, till now, I am still thinking about HIRO.
A really amazing movie.

Today's papers are alrighttttttttttttt.
Except for the sbq in SS, i guess I will be dead.
As for maths, rather manageable, but tricky.
SIX more days to exam over! CHEERS>

Maybe I should move on, and get you into my life.
But is it a good choice?

@ 6:06 PM

Sky of love. It's an amazing and touching story.
HIRO, he is indeed a prince charming that everyone would want.
HIRO♥♥

Wednesday, October 1, 2008 @ 10:12 PM

Alright, just came back from night studying with gl, cw, and js.
Was tired throughout the whole thing, so I didn't really manage to study.
Overall is fine luh =X
Really hope that Exams will be over soon! ):

@ 11:04 AM

Alright, I'm fed up. I've had enough of it.
I shall heed on others advice and give up instead.
This is getting more and more irritating. I shouldn't have done all this.
Total jerk, idiot. Argh! You are really really m e a n! ):

Okay, will be mugging these few days.
All the best for End-Of-Year exams!
I'm complaining so much, but yet I miss you so so much. I really do. After 2 more days, it will be 2 months since we broke up. Sigh,